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I'm having a contest on my other account...might add some stuff to the prizes here shortly...come check it out: 

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No deviants said I'm thinking of throwing in some wolf things and a cute husky plushie in case you were wondering.

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Life Goals

*Pet A Wolf...or at least see one in person...
*Make Art That Doesn't Fail (maybe even commission-worthy?)
*Get A Pomeranian/Pom-Mix
*Go to Further Confusion
*Have A Full Fursuit of Morningdew
*Have A Pair of Arms Stilts
*Get A Career in Animal Control
*Have A House
*Get Married
*Have Property
*Grow My Own Food
*ONLY Buy Local Food or Self-Grown Food

Failure

Fri Jul 18, 2014, 11:22 AM
Life Updates:
So...I didn't get that job at the SPCA...=/ I guess I shouldn't bother getting my hopes up about things. Back to throwing out applications like crazy again, I guess. That or signing up for college classes I really don't want to take so I can keep doing internships. I feel like a failure v_v I want to give up on jobs and just start farming animals and plants for food and income, lol. Well, I guess the good news is I won't be moving before blackberry season...

In the meantime I'm really tired of my internship with the sheriff department. I'm just not needed anymore. I know some stuff that my co-workers don't, but it's stuff that you pick up along the way. Now that another intern is in the CCW department and we've got a new coordinator who is really on task there's just really not that much work to do anymore. I keep having to leave early or even take days off because there is NOTHING to be done, and I don't want to just sit there like a bump on a log trying desperately to invent jobs for myself to do while getting paid. Well, yesterday I took the day off because I felt hot all day like I had a fever or something (I really hate summer heat...I miss living near the coast). But still. I just feel like my time has run its course there. I'm not that useful.

I want to just apply to any 'ol job, but I know if I do it'll just mean disappointing everyone. A family friend really expects me to get into law enforcement one way or another, my parents expect me to get SOME job in the government, and I'm sure I'll still feel like a failure if I get a job outside of my goals and feel very unfulfilled. I'm glad I've at least got something going for me now that makes money, but how much longer can I really stay? Technically speaking I really shouldn't even be able to have this internship anymore. Ugh.

At least Kota's job at Target has been going pretty well. Can't wait 'till he gets his first paycheck! He really was the furthest thing from excited to get the job there, but it's been going better than he thought it would, and it sounds like he's making friends with his co-workers so that's good. We've been pretty deprived of any friend interactions since we moved out here.

As for everything else, well, unproductive life is unproductive. Keep making the house a mess. Keep starting things and never finishing them (like right now I really want to work on my cosplay). Keep getting excited about possibly hanging out with friends only for plans to fall through or never truly form every time. Keep wanting to do things but end up not doing them. And I want to sell all of my belongings so we have cash instead of just stuff around the house (wanting to get rid of things in case we ever DO move, since I'm sure we'd move to a smaller place). Also, our internet REALLY sucks lately. It cuts in and out like crazy. Our cell service has also been crap around the house as well. I really feel like I want to move when fall comes around (after blackberry and squash season....actually, maybe after Thanksgiving, so that way we can butcher our turkeys instead of spending the time and money on them just to give them away or something). Ever since moving away to college I have a bad habit of wanting to move often. Experience new places. Live in different homes. It's a new form of wanderlust I loathed growing up. I love this house though, and my reasons for wanting to leave it are pretty stupid compared to the reasons for staying (the only one that holds any weight is being so far away from everyone/everything, especially when gas is so damn expensive and there's NO public transportation opportunities that would be worth it).

My life just needs a positive change I guess. I feel like a failure. I feel trapped. I feel like a big pile of disappointment. I feel like a waste of space. I feel like a burden.

Gonna go to the river today with the dogs so maybe I'll feel better after that. I feel angsty about everything.

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Wedding Funds Saved: $843/$5,000
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To Do List:
Espurr Costume: Ears Finished, Dress Just Needs Zipper, Hood Almost Finished, Poffle Finished (may touch up), Tail Mostly Finished, Arm Warmers Not Started, Spikes Not Started, Mouth Not Started, Nose Not Made
Summer Contest: love-of-foxes.deviantart.com/j… Not Started
How to Train Your Dragon 2 Astrid Cosplay: Not Started
Warriors Fan-Fic Comic: Started Page 3 (can't figure out where I put it...)
Wannabe-Music-Video-Clip-Thing: Started (FOUND IT!)
100 Themes Challenge: wolfforce58.deviantart.com/jou…

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Stuff People Owe Me:
:iconskinnedwulf: -Coyote Mount (I'm on the list, now to wait my turn!)
:iconsharpe19: -Extra Faux Fur for Modifying Fursuit (status unknown)
:icontentaclelovegoddess: -Hand-Paws W/ Holes for Poi Spinning (working on, technical difficulties)

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People I Know In The Real World:
:heart::iconblackfirehawk: (Kadota or Kota):heart:
:iconlast-chance-child: (The Holy Pulp or My Clone)
:iconneelloc91: (Dr. Neelloc or Midget)
:iconboymeetsfish: (ex-roommate)
:iconkakashi663: (Tad)
:iconmiakalin: (Miaka)
:iconbrink-of-death: (Steph)
:iconvampiresdisaster: (Jenna)
:iconmidnight172: (Luna)
:iconthisnuisance: (Nui)
:iconzifog: (GB)
:icongreendayperson: (Brittany)

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wolfforce58
wolfforce or Morningdew
United States
I'm a furry, I'm a canine "artist" and definitely an internet addict. I live in northern California and love that I do. Not much exciting about me...

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:icon2strokechic:
2StrokeChic Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2014
Hi random deviant :D
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wolfforce58 Featured By Owner Jun 14, 2014
:wave: Hello!
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Fell-BlackHeart Featured By Owner May 15, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch! :heart:
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PurpleTartan Featured By Owner May 5, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the fave! :D
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layalisaud Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Thank you for the llama
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serenitywhitewolf Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014
Thanx for the watch ^^
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UszatyArbuz Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks, have a nice day :)
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MiakaLin Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2013  Student General Artist
Merry Christmas hun! :D
I know its been a while, but I just wanted to say hi,
and wish you a great day!
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wolfforce58 Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2013
Hey, Merry Christmas! =D It has been a while ^^; Sorry about that. Hope you're having a wonderful holiday and have an excellent new year! ^_^
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MiakaLin Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2014  Student General Artist
thanks! And yeah, its okay XD
I had a great new years!
How about you?
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